Following my acceptance of Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I honestly believed I would no longer sin; that God had changed me into being a "good man." That lasted for exactly one hundred days. I had successfully resisted yielding to the many habits that had defeated me for so long. Then it happened! I succumbed to temptation and I was devastated! The first thing Satan threw at me was, "How can you be saved when you did that?" And to be quite honest, I did not disagree with him. I must not have been born again. I must still be lost!
Again, being honest, I do not remember how the Lord ministered to me during that time. What I do know now, is that it was then that He began teaching me that my salvation was 100% grace. I was a sinner in the past, a sinner then, and am still a sinner today. I began to understand that, like the Apostle Paul, I am nothing apart from the Spirit within me. Paul wrote:
"For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: but I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members" (Rom. 7:14-23).My only regret is that I keep forgetting this, and when I sin, my pride keeps being disappointed in me. I find it incredible that after forty years of repeated reminders by my old nature raring its ugly self, I am still surprised! It is bad enough that others expect me to be perfect, without me thinking I should! Thank God for 1 John 3:2:
Beloved, now are we the sons of God,
And it doth not yet appear what we shall be:
But we know that, when He shall appear,
We shall be like Him; for we shall see Him as He is.
And it doth not yet appear what we shall be:
But we know that, when He shall appear,
We shall be like Him; for we shall see Him as He is.
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